jagged edge - let's get married
TRY THIS: Write ten statements intended towards ten different people, but never tell them it was about them or would never say it to their face or something you should you would have said, but never did.
1. I hardly see you; I hardly talk to you. But I just wanted to thank you for being there for me during my many breakdowns. When you responded to my away message when I was "dying inside", it made me cry. I don't know why. You've been a big influence to me within these past couple of years. Just know that even though we're not all that close, I'll be there for you endlessly.
2. Mi mejor amigo. When you tell me she's "perfect", it kills me. When you said it, I was like, "Damn." It actually brought me down for a while. I guess it's because I'm so attached to you. I adore you and everything about you. You're always there for me, watching out for me. Sorry for being the brat that you hate to deal with. I just don't want to lose a person like you. I mean... It takes a lot to gain my trust, and you're one of the very few that have it. You have most of it. Thanks for always holding me down.
3. We go way back. Back to seventh grade. Sorry for all of the hostility I used to show you before. I was so envious of you, it's not even funny. It always seemed like I always lost to you, or you got the better half of things. I guess I'm still kinda envious, but who isn't. You're so beautiful inside and out. I love you for always being there. We hardly even see each other. But it's okay.
4. Aquaintences. That's what we are. I just wanted to thank you for making an impact on my life and changing how I now see the world.
5. Thank you for always being there for me lately. Just for your reassurance, you are slowly gaining my trust. Haha, one of these days, we're going to have our "Super-slut, make-up day". It's going to be off the chain. Haha, I love you, punk.
6. I'm trying. I really am. Sorry if I'm not the best person to be around sometimes and if I'm really stubborn. If I seem distant, please don't think anything of it. Don't trip about the other guys, because you're the only one that I'm tryna holla at. (:
7. I miss you. I miss how we were so close; how I trusted you so much. Now, it's mostly gone and what's left seems like a front. Hopefully we can make up for all the times that we've missed. And go ice-skating like you said we would. Just, don't bring the camera.
8. I hate you, I really do. You're a jerk. You're an asshole. I hate being around you. But you know what I hate the most? The fact that you THINK that what you say can change my ways. I hate the fact that you yelled at me, you lectured me about ONE thing, many, many times. You actually had the power to bring me down. I don't care if you had feelings for me, I don't care if you're not over me. Get over it. you say to not be stupid and make stupid decisions. No, honey. I don't make stupid decisions. Do you know what pisses me off the most? You're so damn hypocritical. Your homeboy is doing almost the same damn thing I'm doing. And you say "age ain't nothing but a number." Fuck that shit. Why can't you say that shit to me? Why can't you be okay with my decisions? Why can't you just leave me be? I hope you know that I'm not going to go crying back to you if anything went wrong. Especially because when I tried to talk to you ONCE, you just stood there, being the asshole that you are. You just stood there and would not even listen. You wouldn't look me in the eye and listen to what I had to say. When will you learn to be considerate to other people besides yourself?
9. I tried to be there for you. I tried to stop you from cutting. Hopefully I had somewhat of an impact of you. I love you, even though we aren't that close. I'll always be there for you. You're so sweet and nice, I can't understand why you'd want to do something like that. It hurts to see someone like you do it. Please think of me and all the pain and misery I went through when I used to do it before you decide to do it. Please don't do it at all. Please, I love you too much to see you hurt yourself.
10. You are a jerk. I don't know what your problem is. Pushing other people into me, what's going on in your head? You don't talk to me for a long time and then you recently decide to acknowledge my presence? Why? Because your "girl's" around? Whatever homie. It's not working. | 
